What am i?

I said i was cool. Technically, i was trying to be cool. Yeah to impress you. hah that sounds much better. Not that i'm regreting it or something you know...It's just that you are more like a buiscuit or chipsmore. Now you see, now you don't. And i don't even have any idea why is that similar to the proverb. It is crazy to wait by the phone that never rings but what is the problem  with the p.c's  speakers?? It keep on buzzing like every 10 minutes. And it makes my heart beating faster  invariably.okay its not a big deal anyway. baru 2 hari..pernah je seminggu. I don't mind..I mean it and i'm actually liking it this way but something's not right. Because i know that i can't reach you. I can but through somebody else which you are not always with him. And you are not gay. haha...the thing is, i don't want your friends to think that i am a noisy and fussy girlfriend that keeps on asking where you at.

please buy a new phone..i promise i'll never text or call you if its not important or if you are not texting me first. I do understand your position. I really do. I'm supporting you with the things you do now that needs your full commitment. I don't want to burden you. You know what is stupid? I don't really know what i want. Hey, i appreciate that even you are not suppose to meet me this 4 months starting from your 1st day onwards, but still we met lyke twice. That is just enough to make me happy you know.. It's not that hard to make me happy. to make me smile. Just a simple thing, i'll smile and even wave like a princess.

You are different from any other. How to put this into words. hurm....I know its kindda ordinary to say that to your own man. (everytime you end up with a guy, you would say that he's different or he's the one and bla bla bla) But believe me. You are not acting like a kid macam the guys i met before. Not that i was with many guys. =)  When we met the other day, it was a surprise that i had a misperception over you. I was expecting the other way round. I even texted kace while walking besides you. I kindda freaked out. Is it normal to be like that..because from my experiences, they couldn't even wait for any seconds.

I'm not sure why i crap this much..Probably because i missed you a lot. I know i'm not suppose to tell any of this publicly but somehow i have to clear my minds off right?  I can't imagine if you find out that i'm talking about you all along. I'm sorry...Call me asap. Not that i insist. And don't take us as a commitment okay. You'll feel burden by that. I don't want you to look at me as your burden. So, i'm cool with this. As long as i know you love me and take me seriously.

p/s : i love you dude..